I don't know.

So, I don't really have anything to say.

Time has gone so fucking fast, I mean I have my first period tests after next week! I mean?? Help??

I don't know what I'm doing with my life... Mostly I'm doing nothing, and I really feel like I should do something. Everything just makes me.... anxious, I guess. I think about the future and all I want to do is curl up in bed with my laptop and watch youtube videos. This is probably a thing I should do something about.........

I'm also probably gonna move back to Kuopio? At least I really want to. The application for the thing starts on the 24th, so I can't apply yet which is really frustrating, ugh.

I wish it was summer. I feel like I need a reset.

Anyway, I was thinking, if I do move back to Kuopio, should I get my own place? Like I would like to live at our parents' house, but I don't know how much they'd appreciate me just hanging around there considering I'm 20, and the whole point of me moving to Helsinki was to not be as dependent on them as I've been. The only thing it did though was made me realize how much I like living at home, so I guess that plan backfired spectacularly. I just.... I don't know.

I need to learn how to make friends. Can someone tell me how that happens? Because I haven't really made friends since the first grade and I'm starting to think I should have other friends........

I should go eat something. My empty stomach is really bringing down my mood..

I wanna feel inspired, I wanna do create, I wanna do stuff, but I'm just really tired. I seriously need to reset but that's not happening here, and apparently I have twomath tests on the period break (what the fucking kinda break is this?????) and naturally one's on Monday and the other's on Friday. So yeeeaahh. I just really wanna skip them both and just come to Kuopio right now, but I can't, because I need to be in English class on this Monday and I don't wanna miss my creative writing class next Friday.  Ugh. My schedule is the shittiest thing, the two things I can't miss are Mondays and Fridays....... I'm just gonna be in Kuopio for a week and a half when it's Easter cause we have no school on Monday and Friday.

I'm sorry this is short and dumb and makes no sense, but I honestly can't be bothered. I actually almost forgot to write altogether.

Bye.

Pie out.